the art of starting over♡

♡ let the darkness, I let the darkness out ♡

I had the armor, I wore it much in the summer
But the arrow hit me right where the heart is

I guess I'm mastering the art of
Starting over, Starting over
New beginnings can be lonely
Thank God I got me to hold me

-You could find mе starvin' for attention most days
Amongst other things, God help me

Finally, get to do things my way

♡ Dear little me

I'm sorry that it took so long

But baby, you're free

. I've lost ten pounds in two weeks'

Cause I told me I shouldn't eat

I gained a new vice way more than twice

I've slept on bathroom floors

I'm an island, I'm alone, but I'm alive

-

Cashin' in my chips for forgiveness
Trading in my shame for perspective
Healing got me lookin' for freedom
Happiness it used to be fleeting
History was always repeating
Not anymore

Trading judgment for freedom
Found somethin' new to believe in
Somethin' inside of me screaming
"Don't be so hard on yourself"

♡

Now I'm in a good place
Took a while to feel this way
No longer have to save face
Reconciled with okay
And with a whole lot of work, whole lot of hurt, whole lot of grace
Now I'm in a good place

Spent my whole life chasin'
Chasin' just to end up turned around
Took me to dark placеs
Thought I'd never get out